11.29.2013

Bumpdate! {Week 11}


How far along: 11 weeks!

Baby size: Baby is the size of a fig, is 1.6 inches long, and weighs about .25 ounces!

Weight gain: I still haven't bought a scale, but I doubt I've gained anything yet. =(

Maternity clothes: Still using the handy-dandy hair tie! 

Stretch marks: Nope.

Sleep: I am still nauseous as I sleep and am still feeling SUPER sick whenever I turn over or change positions, so I try to stay flat on my back most of the night.

Gender: This week I'm really thinking it's a girl for some reason. =)

Best moment this week: Thanks to the Thanksgiving holiday, I had an extra day off from work this week! I think that's the best I can come up with...

Looking forward to: The day when I will not feel like I'm on the verge of dying.

Movement: Nope.

Food cravings: Still no cravings, and still nothing that sounds "good", BUT plain bagels with butter and chocolate pudding are two things I have been able to keep down this week. 

Anything making you sick or queasy: Mostly everything.

Symptoms: Nausea, vomiting, headaches, fatigue, sore boobs, getting out of breath easily, and crying. WOW, the headaches definitely stepped up their game this week! I thought things couldn't get worse, but try throwing up while you have a pounding headache on top of that! SO not fun. I'm not sure if I have been crying more because of hormones, or because I'm just so emotionally and physically drained. Probably both. 

Missing: I'm kind of missing everything this week. Enjoying food, sleeping well, being able to stand at the mirror to do my hair and make-up, shopping, crafting, the beach, going out on my days off... the list could go on. 

Belly Button in or out: In.

Wedding rings on or off: On.

Mood: Still not great this week. I definitely had a major breakdown and said things like "I can't do this anymore" and stuff like that. Each day just feels like a bad dream that I try to forget so I can move on to the next. 

Nursery: I'm still not sure what we'll be doing about a nursery, but I'm excited for the day when I have the energy to care and start planning! 

Work outs: No. People who tell me to exercise to feel better kind of make me want to punch them in the face. Maybe it could help, but while I have barely anything in my stomach and am trying not to throw up every waking moment, exercise it NOT on my mind. Sorry, folks.

Well, that's it for week eleven! I'm sorry that the updates have been on the negative side so far. I am PRAYING that by week twelve I will start feeling at least a little bit better. It's been a rough, ROUGH first trimester and I am more than ready to move on to the next! Thanks for checking in and I'll see you all next week! 

*ATH*

11.22.2013

Bumpdate! {Week 10}



How far along: 10 weeks!

Baby size: Baby is the size of a prune, is 1.2 inches long, and weighs about .14 ounces!

Weight gain: I don't have a scale at home (I need to buy one!) but I'm pretty sure I've either lost a little or stayed the same. Hoping to start gaining soon!

Maternity clothes: Not yet! I did purchase the Bella Band to wear around my unbuttoned and unzipped pants, but I actually prefer the "hair tie method" for now.

Stretch marks: Nope.

Sleep: Hmm... I guess I'm sleeping okay. I feel nauseous 24/7, so that includes when I'm asleep. If I turn from one side to the other in the middle of the night, I feel like everything in my stomach sloshes around and it makes me feel like I'm about to throw up. Gross huh? It's definitely not fun. =(

Gender: Who knows!? I go back and forth all the time! Part of me thinks it's a girl because I've been SO SICK, but then again, I know a few people who were really sick even with their boys. We will be SUPER excited either way!

Best moment this week: Seeing our baby for the first time! I was so happy to hear the heartbeat and see it moving and kicking its little arms and legs! I am so thankful that everything looks perfect so far!

Looking forward to: The first trimester being OVER. I am so, so, so, over this sickness stuff.

Movement: Nope.

Food cravings: Food? Cravings? NO. NO. NO. I wish there was just ONE thing that I would crave, but at the moment all food is disgusting to me. Let's stop talking about food.

Anything making you sick or queasy: YES. Everything. The end.

Symptoms: Nausea, vomiting, headaches, fatigue, sore boobs, and I get out of breath easily.

Missing: Vlogging! I always thought that when we got pregnant we would film EVERYTHING. I wasn't expecting to be so sick that I literally could not do more than barely keep myself alive. I want to get back to making videos soon!

Belly Button in or out: In.

Wedding rings on or off: On.

Mood: Want me to be honest? I've probably been in a bad mood for a month straight. I don't handle being sick very well, I guess, and it has gotten me pretty down. Josh says things like "Be positive! The sickness will probably end soon!" or "Try smiling more and you might feel a little better." I mostly just want to cry and then scream "YOU OBVIOUSLY DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW!" Poor Joshie. Seriously though, he's been awesome!

Nursery: We recently moved out of our studio apartment and into a one bedroom condo. I'm not really sure how the whole nursery thing is going to work. Maybe the baby will be out on the lanai? Or in the closet? Ha. I'm not joking.

Work outs: Sadly, a big fat NO. When I'm not at work, I'm in bed, and that's just how it's going to be until I can eat and drink a decent amount and keep it all down! Our new condo has a nice pool, so hopefully when I'm feeling better I can start swimming!

That's it for the week 10 update! See you next week! =)

*ATH*




11.19.2013

Bumpdate! {Part Two}

(Continued...)

The days following that positive test were a blur! We broke the news to our parents (they were all SO excited) and to other close family and friends. I called and made a doctors appointment and we talked about how long we would wait to make the news public. We both agreed that we couldn't wait the recommended twelve weeks. No way, Jose. (To those of you who wait/waited that long to tell... I tip my hat to you, because I am not good at keeping secrets!) We decided we would announce the news on Halloween, the day of my first doctors visit!

Up until the middle of my 5th week of pregnancy, I was like, "I've got this! I feel fine! Maybe I won't have any of those horrible symptoms that some women get. Man, I feel so bad for them." 

HOLY.MOLY.I.WAS.WRONG.

Right on cue, as I approached the 6th week, terrible things started to happen. My birthday, which fell smack-dab during this time, was my first real day of symptoms. That morning when I got out of bed, Josh had flowers waiting for me, had cooked me biscuits and gravy for breakfast (YUM!), and had orange juice and decaf coffee waiting for me. The problem? I couldn't eat it. It looked so good, and smelled so good, but I could not get down more than a few bites. This is when panic set in. "Oh, no, what is happening? This isn't suppose to happen to ME." Ha. So naive. 


It was a downward spiral from there. Later that day we decided to get out and do some birthday shopping, but for some reason THE MALL SMELLED WEIRD. I'm not joking. I couldn't handle the way the mall smelled, so we had to leave. We then tried to go to dinner at our favorite restaurant and I could barely make it through. I managed to eat more than I had a breakfast, but it was tough - and a real bummer for me. 

Weeks 6-9 have pretty much all looked the same. I have been nauseous 24/7 since October 23rd, with no day of relief in sight. 4 weeks of constant nausea, throwing up, no appetite WHATSOEVER, bad sleep, and working 40 hours a week, has done quite a number on me. Basically when I'm not at work, I'm in bed. I've been struggling to feel as happy and excited as I always thought I would be. I feel like I'm in survival mode - literally surviving each day just to be able to mark it off the calendar. Ugh. Can the first trimester be over yet? Please? Then again, I guess I'm not guaranteed that my symptoms will go away after week 12, but boy am I praying they do.

Here's a little glimpse of what the past 4 weeks have looked like in iphone photos:


Top Ramen and YouTube.
Trying to survive at work. If I eat one more Saltine I think I will die.
The work day is so miserable that sometimes on my lunch break I just lay in the car. =(
My mother-in-law bought me this ginger syrup to mix into drinks. It helps a little.
It's sad when taking two bites is considered a "success." It's also sad that I ate McDonalds. Oops.
No "baby-bump" yet, but my pants are too tight to button! Hair ties save the day! =)
We have our first ultrasound scheduled for this Friday (11/22) and I am REALLY looking forward to it. I think actually seeing that there is something growing and moving inside of me will make me realize that all of this suffering is worth it - there will be a prize at the end! Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers that everything will go well! We can't wait to see this little baby for the first time!!!

*ATH*




11.18.2013

Bumpdate! {Part One}

Well, hello blogland! I am going to do the best I can to FINALLY sit down sit up and write a little update on my pregnancy so far. (P.S. Can I just say that it still sounds so bizarre to say those words... "my pregnancy"?) Sometimes I think my brain still doesn't believe that something, or someone, is really in there, which is crazy, because I am definitely feeling the side effects of pregnancy in full force! I suppose I should start at the beginning of the story, so here we go!

My husband, Josh, and I have been married for over 5 years. We got married at 19 and I'm sure a lot of people thought we were a little "crazy in the head", but we knew it was the right step for us. Of course, getting married so young and being in the middle of our college years, pregnancy was always a concern. We really wanted it to be something that we were "ready" for - something that was planned. Waiting 5 long years, for me, was pretty much torture. I knew it was the right thing for us to wait, but it was so hard! 

I can't remember the first time that we had "the talk" about possibly being ready, because I'm sure it was something that I brought up on a pretty regular basis, but I would say that by the middle of the summer, after we hit the 5 year mark on marriage, it began to be something that we discussed a lot more seriously. (Keep in mind, I am using the term "ready" loosely here. Of course there are always a gazillion more things you could check off the list before being really ready, but does that day really exist? I don't think so.)

By August we were actually "trying" to get pregnant, which was so surreal. Pregnancy had been something that we had avoided for so long, that it almost felt like "Hold on! What are we doing!? Are we sure this is okay!?" Ha. I was constantly reminding myself that we were adults - 25 year old adults. When did that happen? Crazy. 

It only took us two months of trying until we saw those two glorious lines on a home pregnancy test! That was one crazy day. I really didn't think I was pregnant, even though I was 4 days late, and I did NOT want to take a test because I didn't want to be disappointed with a negative result. BUT I was driving Josh insane! (I am so thankful, for his sake, that it only took us two months of trying, because I kind of turned into a crazy person. Ha.) He pretty much begged me to just take it already, so I did. 

On Wednesday, October 16th, early in the morning, I went into the bathroom and took the test. The box said to give it 3 minutes to show the result, which I was fully convinced would be negative. I peed, hit the timer on my phone, and reached to set the test on the counter. Before I could fully set it down, THERE WERE TWO LINES! I'm pretty sure my whole body went numb. I didn't laugh, or cry, or scream, or smile, or anything. I just stared - for a looong time. I finally gathered myself enough to open the door and walk out where Josh was waiting for me, and I just said "It's positive." He immediately smiled and yelled "I knew it! This is so exciting!!!" I have to say, he had always been the more hesitant one, so the fact that he was sounding confident and excited about it really helped me to snap out of my shock and fear a bit. =)


Without much time to let things sink in, we had to scramble to get ready and head off to work, but that was a pretty special day when it was just our little secret. =)

(To be continued...)    

11.01.2013

We've Got Some News!!!


We could not be more thrilled! We are due June of next year and can't wait to welcome this sweet baby into our lives! I have been pretty sick the past few weeks, so sorry I've been MIA lately. Fingers crossed this morning ALL DAY LONG sickness will cut me some slack in the coming weeks - I really miss eating for enjoyment. ;) 

I'm sure this space will become a place to show some fun baby DIY's and to document the growing bump, so stay tuned! 

*ATH*